Weighed down by my version of failure, my expectations and my sense of what is in fact the right standard to exist, is how I welcome my 26th year soon.
“Happy Birthday” I will be told, “Thank You” I’ll say with a big smile across my face as if I’ve achieved a glorious milestone in life by aging.
I can tell myself all these thoughts and I can continue to downpour the day I was brought into existence or, I could shrug it off and deal with life’s curve-balls with a smile that may not read happiness, but definitely reads “fuck you”.
I’ve started writing less, but whatever I write, I’m appreciative of the fact that I’m able to convey it the way I want.
I’ve started sketching less but I appreciate my ability to draw, not diminishing.
So here I bring to you – some tater tots of unsolicited advice to anyone out there looking for a read, or some motivation maybe, or just something to be appreciative of in general.
You could be the most gentlest person
You could be someone going through a world of anxiety
You could the most silliest person
You could be anyone, and yet, you stepped in that puddle of shit to question “why me?” It’s unfortunate, it’s not ideal, its not fair, but here you are – covered in crap. Let’s mope about it, cry about it, feel bad about it. Once you’re done though, clean that shit off of you.
Why is there a puddle of shit anyway out of nowhere? It wasn’t meant to be there, and you weren’t meant to be there either – so what do you do?
You move on.
You move on and you wash that stench right off of you along with the memory of misfortune and keep it moving.
There’s so much I’ve experienced, the good,the bad, the bad masked in good and the extreme ugly – but I’m still here to talk about my 26th birthday – it’s coming, and that means another year to prove myself and to all the puddles of shit I’ve stepped in, that – “you’re merely puddles of unwanted excretion. I can step in you and wash you off, I can step over you and keep going, but at the end of the day – being insufferable will not be tolerated”.
As you say those words, you’ll ease up, slowly, but itll happen – and you’ll accept the goodness coming for you, and you’ll be happy.
Happy soon-to-be 26 to me. ~(^.^)~
Vertigo Madness 